What are Relationships these days? Day 72
Sep 18, 2018
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so good morning everybody this is
something different different I
definitely want to apologize you guys
for yesterday's walk that was that was a
that was a sad vlog like I was like
uploading it and I see like 16 minutes
and I'm just like are you kidding me
right now like I never just do 16 minute
vlogs but just yesterday all together
was just like one of those days where
you know everything in its timing was
like off and I think from just me
dealing with my rash which uh it's
actually a little bit better today I'm
gonna jinx myself or anything but it
does seem a little bit better today I
did take a lot of your guys's
suggestions and I did do like some
diaper rash cream I put the barrier in
between the both of the skin folds and
so maybe that's why it's doing better it
definitely still has a little bit of an
itch to it and I think that's just gonna
be until we can get that under control
and that's probably not gonna be under
control until until I get to the doctor
on Thursday because most likely it's
gonna take
steroid of some sort my husband drives
he always puts the pedals clear back as
he's tall and then I go to try and do my
pedals and it's like my feet are barely
touched anyways sorry for the glare of
Sun I am on my way to go get a Dutch tea
I just dropped her in my office school
and from there I have to go and get gas
because my gas like pumped on last night
on the way home like gee let's just
allow one more thing to happen so so I
gotta run to costco from there go get my
tea and then go go get my tea go hit the
gas and then get to costco or get to
counseling if i could talk right by 10
o'clock we're gonna do this it's 9
o'clock right now I gotta try to think
ahead of me but I think I could do it
so anyways but yeah I definitely want to
check in with you guys I'd just tell you
guys I'm really sorry about yesterday's
vlog because I
that was actually mmm that felt like a
bummer to me like a dud
and I guess the reason why is because
you know when I make these vlogs it's
definitely something that I do as a
passion like this is seriously my
passion I love doing this for you guys
and not just for you guys but also for
myself like it's so therapeutic and so
when I don't get to vlog and I don't get
to like do what I enjoy doing I
definitely feel like a loss and that's
kind of where it was at yesterday like I
just felt like I guess you would say
like a loss and that it's not very fun
so anyways I'm hoping today will be a
much much better day other than the Sun
beating in my face and that way you guys
can't see me but being a much better day
and just the sense of being able to get
back into my daily vlogging I just you
know I watch a lot of day vloggers to
see how to see how they do it you know
and I don't know if I'm doing it right
if it's you know because a lot of times
I you know I noticed they have their
their cameras on seemingly all the time
and I get so busy often doing my own
thing then I don't forget to pick up my
my camera like I'll be thinking like oh
my gosh this is wood you know this is
awesome I get to share this and then
it's like boom oops I forgot I'm not
gonna be able to share this because well
I don't have my camera in my hand and so
it's just getting that habit of carrying
my stuff and you know constantly being
able to vlog is like the biggest thing
for me and again like I've said a
million times I love doing what I do and
if it wasn't for you guys I wouldn't
want to do it but you guys are so
amazing and so supportive all the time
that it just makes what I do so worth it
and I love it
so anyways
getting all mushy before it's even ten
o'clock in the morning anyways but yeah
so tomas yesterday it was just it was a
long day
i didn't end up going to bed until oh
gosh it was like almost 1:30 in the
morning
i know i was gonna have to be up early
the following day today because my
counseling so of course I have to be up
I have my hand here you guys so you can
at least see kind of my face otherwise
it's like I really hope there is not an
accident anywhere over the bridge
because do you ever have those days
where people are calling you 50,000
times a day and they like don't stop and
you're just like come on just I love you
but anyways what I was saying forgot
rudely interrupted by my husband is I
seen an ambulance with its lights on I
said oh no I hope there's not an
accident anywhere close to the bridge
cuz if there is we will be stuck in
traffic for a while but I don't think so
cuz I still see traffic going so that's
a plus anyways I am currently at Dutch
brothers I'm going to order myself a tea
meself and then I'm gonna go to Costco
go get my gas and make it back on this
side of town by 10 o'clock we'll see if
this works because usually Amy doesn't
always have the best of luck like today
you know everybody's taking their sweet
time giving her comic
Oh time for this it's already nine ten
so anyways I will check in with you guys
again in a little but I'm gonna say
something to you guys I forgot what I
was gonna say this Sun is really like
bugging me because it's right in that
bar or spot where I can't see you guys
and you guys probably can't see well I
really can't originally see you guys but
yeah now what I mean
and then Ollie has to take the car today
to go get the tire fix which our fear is
because see here's the thing since we've
had the car which we got the car a year
ago yeah well yeah about a year ago and
it was obviously owned by a previous
owner it was a one-time owner but I
don't know I guess the it was an older
lady or something like that but anywho
the way that the tires are running well
the one God I don't know what happened
to it looked like Exorcist got ahold of
it or something he said that he's afraid
that when he goes they're gonna tell him
that he probably is gonna have to get oh
there's a lovely beat that he's probably
gonna have to get all four tires done
yeah good times
so that's what we're hopes are is not
okay hold on you guys good morning I am
gonna do the large green tea
flavored with sugar-free raspberry
double cup extra ice flat lid of course
my plays larger x-ray screen G was ready
for us right
three dollars and I got this double
stamp that we'll see hands we've also
have like one another card yeah yeah
great how was your weekend
oh it was great until we got a flat on
the freeway yesterday in Wilsonville
yeah that wasn't very fun oh my bad you
guys had like triple-a or anything no
and so my husband had to change it
Maestas finger open oh my god it was oh
now we got to go get the new tire but
yeah good times
always enjoys that there's no no yeah
it's always it's gonna be here thanks on
it's like seeing my friends every Monday
I usually come well I come usually once
to twice a week I've been trying to slow
down a little bit not because I mean the
drinks are only three dollars for me
because I just get a tea I don't get
like coffee or anything but I don't know
I've been trying to just slow down and
try and get more water in but Monday's
are my treat day I guess you could say
my glasses turn to sunglasses in the
light so it's like sometimes I'll be
sitting there talking to somebody and
then BOOM my eyes will turn really dark
my glasses turned like oh that's great
well there now you guys heard me order
my my drink and that this cover that I
have on over my shirt I got it from Tori
this the first time I've worn it
now I gotta get it awesome thank you you
do
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I probably should just start asking for
regular ice like the amount of ice
I always it's like a habit to ask for
extra ice when I drink soda like if I
would go to like McDonald's and they
have like the dollar sodas or whatever I
always ask for extra ice because well
the ice melts fast but I don't I haven't
in over two months and boy has it made
such a difference like literally but
anyways I always ask for extra ice and
then here when I ask for extra ice they
like literally they fill it up so much
they have to pop the lid to make it like
a dome lid because normally they would
just put a dome lid on but I hate dome
lids because it allows the T's are like
I don't know I don't feel like it's held
and good enough for something I don't
know I'm a freak
anyways good times well you guys I'm
going to go for now I'm gonna focus on
the road but I will check in with you
guys in a little bit I'm just gonna go
and get the gas and then head over to
counseling and pray that I get there on
time then I'm not running behind so
anyways I hope you guys are having a
wonderful start to your guyses Monday it
is beautiful here this morning it's
chilly it's only 54 but it's beautiful
like it's not raining so it's supposed
to be a fairly nice week ahead of us so
that will be nice too
now I'm going over the bridge so anyways
I will get to you guys again in a little
bit if I don't check in with you before
counselling I'll check in with you guys
after counseling and fill you guys in ok
I am just getting out of counseling now
to head back sorry
now to head back to the house so that
Olli can take the car and go get the new
tire would be wonderful anyways so I
just want to check in with you guys in
let you know that counseling went really
well today lots of good things talked
about learning learning about
relationships can always be such a
difficult thing especially when certain
relationships can come with difficult
measures if that makes any sense
and for me
lately I'm kind of at that point in my
life where I'm trying to figure out what
relationships are truly worth putting
efforts into and what relationships I
really you know could care less if they
were to evolve or not and you know I've
had a couple of you know relationships
lately that have come to reality for me
that I wasn't really sure if I would
ever
you know like sincerely having a
relationship that with some of these
people and you know my heart is you know
obviously with counseling and stuff my
heart is definitely healing and I see it
in so many ways than one and one is you
know learning to trust myself and in my
choices that I am going to make a good
choice and I'm going to make the right
decision for every relationship and
person in my life that it's gonna be a
good thing and so talking about that
today sorry I did not take my tea in
with me which is so unlike me I was
thirsty anyways but figuring out where I
want to go with some of the
relationships are so intriguing to me
because
it's a different place to be where you
can choose you have the right to choose
truly what relationships you want and
that is an amazing fulfilling to be able
to have that choice and the freedom to
say hey you know what I think this is a
relationship worth visiting and seeing
if it's gonna be a relationship worth
having but also learning that the
relationships that I've had in the past
are not gonna be the relationships that
I want for my future and that's the
biggest thing is you know as people are
building relationships with me you know
now it's not about because in the past I
used to have the tendency to run my
relationships into each other and when I
say that it means like so I have a
relationship with a and I have a
relationship with B
what me and a talk about I go back and I
talk to relationship be a little bit
about and vice versa what I talked to
relationship be about I talk to a
relationship a so i'm cons
i'm like taking both relationships and
combining them and you just really can't
do about if you want a true relationship
and if you want the respect from
relationship a and from relationship b
you can't combine relationships with
each other because one that's pure
gossip because you're gonna gossip about
this person and what they're doing and
their relationship with whomever that
they're sharing their relationship
problems with you and you know and it
can become a very nasty thing and so for
me it's like okay you know this is not
who I am anymore I have high standard
boundaries of what I talk about with one
person is not going to exceed itself to
another relationship because that's just
not who I am and being able to have that
freedom to know what relationships I
want to put my efforts into is also such
a new feeling to be able to have and
you know sometimes it's hard for me to
have sincere relationships with people
because of like past abuse and things
like that and you know I guess I'm I
just don't like no in front of me in
things I wasn't trying to get in front
of you but you know like I was talking
to my counselor today I said you know I
how can I be okay with one abuser but
not okay with the other abuser or how
can I be okay with one person that stood
by and seen abuse happened to me
and pretty much locate it and the other
person to the exact same thing but I'm
not okay with that and so as my
counselor and I were talking and you
know sifting us loud and digesting the
whole conversation she says well because
what the with one of the people they
also endured a lot of visible
in their childhood and maybe you have
compassion for that because you clearly
understand what that means and we're not
saying that it's okay what happened and
it's not okay that those things happened
to you but maybe that's where your
compassion comes in and maybe that's why
you're okay to say you know I'm at a
point in my life where I want to say I'm
okay with that anyways I am almost home
I'm just right around the corner so I'm
gonna go in and check in with my family
see what they're doing and then oli is
gonna go ahead and take the car with the
tire and go get that taken care of
because well it has to happen so he's
gonna go ahead and go and do that I'm
gonna stay home with the kids
probably make some lunch for myself and
for them I'm sure they're probably
hungry
so anyways I just wanted to check in
with you guys let you guys know what is
kind of going on and how my session went
and hey you guys so I just wanted to
check in with you all and let you all
know that I am having some mommy time
finally it's been needed so I was
sitting here and I'm actually gonna
start my video for you guys of the
crafting video so you guys will see that
coming very soon
and then I have another video coming
which didn't show you what they were so
hopefully I'm gonna have a couple videos
getting ready to be pushed out finally I
know you guys have been waiting
patiently anyways but really quick
before I forget I was really
contemplating and really thinking about
it
and I'm thinking that I was thinking of
fun to do an auction so what I'm gonna
do is when I get done doing the wreath
and I get the crafting corner video up
and stuff then I think we're going to do
a an auction and I lock ssin it off to
somebody so I think that's gonna be a
lot of fun um I was thinking like oh you
know what what can I do here and that's
what I want to do and then also I have
mm another thing that I'm gonna do I'm
gonna do another giveaway um but this
giveaway is gonna be a smaller giveaway
so with my giveaway I'm going to be
including a lipstick one of the fun
lipsticks and these are the ones that
color change with temperature and there
is a flower in it and I will also be
including a piece of jewelry but I'm not
going to show you what kind of jewelry
that's gonna be the little kicker
so anyways um but I'll get more into
detail with that as well tonight when
we're talking more because I'm gonna go
ahead and I am going to switch on over
to my crafting corner so we can start
working on a craft anyways I hope you
guys are having a great day so far I'll
talk to him a little bit okay you guys
so I am going to actually sit and do my
colors to me it's been a long time
coming
right now I have gel overlay over my
nails but they are all cleaned
underneath um make sure before I go and
turn myself and click a wire no they're
all clean underneath um if I if you see
sparkles it's cuz I did part one of my
part to UM craft video boo boo but it
definitely left me quite quite glamorous
so yeah I've got glitter everywhere you
should see my lap my lap is filled with
gold coloring oh yeah good um but
anyways so but I thought well today ins
are really good night to be able to do
this I've been wanting to do it for a
while and my husband is watching the
babies and so I was like why not take
the time to do them so yeah so I am so
excited to be able to get this done and
be able to show you guys again how easy
these things are because you guys all
know time with me is very short I don't
have really a lot of time to paint my
nails and that's why I tend to go to the
gel polish because I can cure under the
light and be done but it's not always
something I want to do like I don't
always want to have gel on my nails all
the time but that's the only way that I
can do my manicures is through gel
because I just don't have the time to
let my polish dry and nine out of ten
somehow someway um I tend to mess them
up it doesn't matter what I do I could
sit still for three hours and I swear
you're not I will find a way to smudge
an L so when I heard about these from
Melissa which again her channel is and
I'm gonna post it right here somewhere
right in here H Kitty vlogs she is the
one that introduced this to me and to
her channel but of course I'm on her
channel so to me and when I heard about
these I was like oh my gosh I have got
to try these and so I got a a sample
pack and those are the ones that I
showed you guys before those things
lasted for two weeks like I was
literally waiting for those things to
chip off and fall off and they never did
in fact I finally had to take them off
and all you do when you take them off is
just nail polish that is it this is just
no polish remover people say that they
you only last
to a week mine we're going almost two
weeks hers went two weeks and I mean
seriously they go as long before your if
you're anything like me I like changing
my nail polish up quite often I have to
have change I have to have change when
it comes to my nails but I can handle
them first so long before I'm like okay
we're ready for a change but to be able
to slap these things on and be able to
just to pretty much go
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okay you guys so I'm actually going to
show you guys my daughter getting her
nails on she wanted stickers like mommy
of course because you know they think
they're stickers so I'm going to try
this and see if it will work let me see
what else baby
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hey nice alright I am starting my
workout so I just wanted to let you guys
know I am running a little bit behind
today I'm doing a later workout versus
my earlier work out but that's just how
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don't
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I really thought you on my side
on my side
I need a leader
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when I need you the most
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don't let me down
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don't let me
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it's in my
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I really thought you're on my side
on my side
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I need a leader
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they come
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do the
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it was 20 minutes worth so that was a
good one
so yes hi I completed it I am I feel
good I feel like I accomplished my days
were the Monday is workout and I could
not stop my day without doing my workout
so I'm glad you guys were able to join
it watch me die with my heart
you guys just seen my workout I ended up
filming two videos today along with just
vlogging so I say pretty busy but
tonight during dinner I was like oh I
forgot to do my workout in Ali's like
you know it's okay I'm like no it's not
okay it's clearly not okay I cannot go
to bed without doing my workout because
I am sticking to my goals my what I say
I'm doing I'm doing it no matter what so
no there is absolutely without a shadow
that out no excuse to not reach your
goals unless you're on you're in the
world
you are on your deathbed and just cannot
do it then I understand otherwise
there's truly no excuse my goodness
today was a wonderful day
all in all it was an amazing day I had a
great counseling session which went
really well
and you know I just I learned a lot
today actually about my counseling
sessions and you know one thing that I
you know was telling my counselor and I
think I kind of filled you guys in a
little bit this morning but I'm not sure
exactly like how old in depth I went
because I know sometimes I saved that to
talk about at nighttime but you know one
of the things that I talked to her about
was that Monday's are
like my grounding day it's the day that
I go to counseling I talk about my
week's worth of issues we dip into you
know sometimes the trauma part and you
know it can go on from there and you
know today she had a really good point
she said you know just describe to her
what I mean by grounding what does
grounding mean to me and because her
concern is she doesn't want me to be she
doesn't want me to be 100 percent limit
on her for everything that I deal with
and things like that my goal and my
reason for going to counseling is of
course to build the tools in my toolbox
to you know be able to face world issues
life issues family issues and be able to
handle them without having ballistic
issues beyond repair and when I say that
I'm talking like you know in past times
when life would get you know struggling
or anything like that I tended to always
flip the situation and make it a what do
you want to call it a dramatic like
Fiasco of a theme for myself and I would
get angry I didn't know how to express
my my frustrations I guess I should say
so sometimes items would get thrown I
would be screaming and yelling I mean it
just would be chaos because I didn't
know how to go into a situation not take
that situation personal but be able to
use tools to accomplish the situation at
hand and be able to come out of it
without filling drug down fill beaten
down
and basically at the end of the
situation feel like I am less than
anything that happened in that problem
and so as we got talking about it today
I was like you know that is true because
my goal in life is to be able to get off
my depression pills and be able to face
life in general but in a total different
color and not have to see things so
black and white but be able to start
seeing shades of color in between and be
able to handle that because it shouldn't
always have to be black and white I
think between the two of us we will be
able to figure that time out and that
will be when I start getting ready to
exit out of counseling but with that
conversation it really brought attention
to how I want to go further with my
counseling what is my goals and
counseling what are my ideas that and
dreams of what I want to accomplish
during counseling a lot of times I get
caught up in talking about the week's
worth issues but sometimes I mean we've
had more of those sessions rather than
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complete deep down trauma issues and
it's time to start unlocking each of
those doors and start going in and
visiting each of those trauma times in
my life so that we can start building
more tools or what happened during those
times but be able to if something was to
ever come up in now time be able to
reflect from those times but take the
tools that I have learned to heal that
to work on a situation that might be
closed or since you know since a bill to
the same things that I was going through
at that time I was probably pretty
confusing but
anyway without whole long stretch of
everything um one thing that we
discussed and I kind of talked about
this morning was about relationships and
what relationships are worth putting
efforts into and what relationships are
probably not ones that really don't need
to be fed and watered if they last they
last but be able to like if they dwindle
that it would be okay because it's not a
relationship that was really worth
fighting for this time in my life I have
been presented with a couple of
relationships and people that I've come
back into my life from past times that I
really wasn't sure would ever happen and
you know I am so I guess I could say I
am such a new person and I'm such a new
Amy that I don't want these people that
are coming to me now to think that I'm
still the same old person that I was
years ago today it's a whole new realm
you know I I I build relationships with
boundaries you know I have amazing
relationships with people I have amazing
relationships with you guys and those
relationships are guarded so much
because I have learned over the years
but I don't know if that's why I because
I I needed to feel so validated that I
felt the need to mix my relationships
with one another and that's not healthy
that is not
but I didn't know that at the time I
just thought that's how every
relationship runs is that you know you
share all of your intimate business with
one another and you know it
everybody knew everything and I grew up
thinking that that was okay and that was
acceptable and it's not acceptable and
that is a big issue to be able to have a
real positive relationship with anybody
is not mixing that relationship with
somebody with another relationship now
if you're sitting there and you're
saying letter a was showing me the
candle at Michael's craft store Hobby
Lobby and it was on sell and oh my gosh
it just so it smells so good I think
that it would be something you would
really like that's different but if you
were to go and be like oh my gosh so you
know letter a was telling me that you
know she might have to go back to work
because you know her husband hasn't been
working and their income is really short
and you know she doesn't want to go back
to work but she feels forced to have to
go back to work
that is what's unacceptable that is
where you're taking information from one
relationship that was come you know
someone confided in you talked to you
told you you know private information
knowing that you would keep those things
between that person and you and you go
and you share those reasons you know
that relationship and information as an
open box so it devalue me basically
devalues what they said as being private
it devalues their feelings and you're an
open box for this other person that was
wanting to keep their information
private and their life private but you
just shared it and who knows what letter
B is gonna do with that information is
letter B gonna go until is letter B
gonna go tell letter C and letter C you
know and then you got the whole alphabet
and involved in letter aides business
and in the end guess what
this is gonna come back around to letter
A and letter a is gonna know that they
told you so then they'll know that they
can never open back up to you again
because you know you just proved that
you cannot keep a private conversation
between you and them and that's where I
was at one point in my life people could
not trust telling me nothing because I
had a big mouth I would go and tell this
person go tell that person and you know
this person would know this and it just
you know and then I would share my life
business with everybody and there was no
privacy and it was a hard hard task to
learn to not do that I lost a lot of
trust in people a lot of people there
was really no relationship anymore
because that was taken away now I can
successfully say over the last three
years I have learned what a true
relationship is and how a relationship
you know you can have a relationship
with multiple people and you can also
keep all that information between each
and every person you don't have to share
something with somebody just to make
yourself validated or make yourself feel
good or I don't know just in general
just to share information that's not
yours to share so it was a really good
session though I will say it was such a
good session it really opened my eyes my
heart has changed so much in the last
year and a half with my counseling that
you know I am ready to start revisiting
some relationships that at one point
were severed and I don't know what that
means though I don't know if those
relationships I'm thinking are gonna go
you know a hundred percent I
don't know if it's gonna be an
acquaintance type of relationship I
don't know I will let that go as time
Hills but I think I'm at a point in my
life where I can say what happened in
the past was not okay what happened in
the past can be considered abuse I will
not allow any excuses to be made for
behavior on either port of each other
because I think that everybody holds
mistakes in their hands including myself
I'm not perfect
I've had major faults but I am able to
say today I am responsible for my
actions
I am responsible for my choices my
choices have created humongous issues my
actions and my choices have created
heartache I will say that it was never a
hundred percent my intention to hurt
anybody but I think as I had to find
myself and try and really find who I
really am and my true color meaning you
know there's a box of crayons and in a
box of crayons there can't all be one
color that's not how a box of crayons
works there's multiple colors to make
multiple different pictures and at one
point in my life everybody in the box of
crayons was all one color and if you
tried to sorry I got a Herriman Oh if
you try to step outside the coloring box
to maybe gain a little bit of color and
start finding your true own self then
you basically the the people in the the
crayons in the box felt betrayed and
felt like you
were turning your back on them and that
you were you know going against what
you've always known and that sincerely
was not my ever my intention my tension
was I need to find my true identity I
need to find who I really am because
this isn't Who I am anymore I don't want
to be all the same yellow I want to be a
different color and with that I had to
remove myself from the box and in that
sense of removing myself from the color
of all the colored box
I lost multiple relationships because
that hurt a lot of people and as now I
have found my identity I found Who I am
and I'm learning how to express the new
me and be the compassionate Amy and the
understanding Amy but also know that
there's still colors in the box that are
still the same colors they have yet to
maybe find their ultimate true color or
their true identity because they've been
stuck in that box for so long but it's
okay to put yourself back into that
coloring box but guess what a little of
your color might mix to the next person
and maybe their color might start to
change and then they might start saying
hmm I think I kind of like this shade of
color it's not Amy's color it's not
their color but if this is a new color
and I'm kind of liking it I think I want
to go find out why I like this color I'm
gonna step out of the box for a little
bit and I'm gonna find that color and
why I like it doesn't mean that color
that took itself out of the box has to
100% not talked to any of the other
colors in the box but maybe I might pull
them away a little bit just so they can
really learn who they are what they want
in life because you're never too old to
find those things out sometimes you
might find those things late
life sometimes you might find those
things early on in life and sometimes
you might find those things on your
deathbed there's never a time frame for
when you find your true identity but
don't ever allow yourself to feel like
you have to stay a certain color to just
fit in because that's not how life works
and it will not ever last there will be
a time where those colors are gonna
clash because there's so many of the
same color there's nothing new there's
no change there's no nothing so unless
colors start being added back into that
box it will stay dull and stay flat and
that's kind of where I'm at with a
couple of these new relationships that
I'm dipping my toes into and I embracing
them and I love knowing that there's a
chance that maybe at some given time I
will be able to 100% embrace that
relationship totally but I think it's
gonna take time it's gonna take building
trust again for both parts I'm not just
for me but for both parts and I think
that it's something that it will evolve
as it is supposed to and on its own time
you can't rush something like that
because if you rush it it's not gonna
last like it seriously will not last and
it won't work out because you're just
pushing something that might not be
ready to make it to the next step of
wherever it's at so anyways yeah I
babbled for a very long time okay but I
had you know it just I loved sharing
with you guys what I learn in counseling
because sometimes they you know my
counselor just has a great way of
helping me see things that I just didn't
think that I would ever see that way and
then it's like whoa Wow okay that's
never thought of it that way and then
you know she has a way of helping me see
it clearly so anyways that was my day
today it was kind of a it was a better
day today I will definitely say it was a
much better day today we will get the
tire fixed tomorrow
have an appointment at 2:00 I think he
said I think all he said so I did get my
workout today and I will be walking
tomorrow so I'm hoping that I will be
able to record that and at least at
least take you guys on part of my walk
as I'm dying
I'm sure wonderful Monday and a great
start to your first part of your week
and I'm glad that you were able to watch
this video I hope you enjoyed it as much
as I did making it and take care and I
will see you guys tomorrow morning sweet
dreams
bye
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